wheee, im back from the airport!

Daddy left us for Japan for freaking 11 daysxz.

bahhhhh!

We had breakfast in the morning before driving off to the airport.

the 3 kids were up early, and out for breakfast together!

its been long since we're all up and out for breakfast.

Popo didnt follow though.

It was great, love the morning.

Had fun, totally.

On the way to the airport, Xiuhui was complaining to the parents what a big elephant i am.

With Wilson & the parents laughing like mad, but i didnt really care.

heh, just smile, cause heh, cute though i was the joke. but i didnt really mind. :)

then we were reminiscing the past, and we started joking and laughing.

Then daddy had to bring out this incident when i was in P6 and Wilson was in P2.

The very protective sister who went to confronted this geeky girl who scolded her brother some shit.

& of course, the girl's mother tried making a big fuss out of it.

Xiuhui laughed her ass off as me and Wilson tried recalling what happened.

hahahahahaa.

All received a hug and a kiss from Daddy.

Then we headed homeee. :)

another long drive back.

whee, nice.

Just, looking out the window, with songs played via mp3.

(Y)!

me like.

Team should be training now.

Very much want to do well in K4.

More practice, just a little more. :)

reaching soon.

ahhh, just 27 more days.

come on come on.

Getting a little tense though..

ok, gonna study!

BYEZX!

Heh, the best teammates i'll ever get. :)

heartfelt thanks to each and everyone of you.

i'm touched, very very.

i dont know how to express my thoughts now.

but i'm really surprised and happy.

very thoughtful team of girls i have with me.

& thank God for them, because without them, i wouldnt be as strong as i am now.

8 of them, yes, 8 of them,

concerned & worried.

not that i'm mean enough to allow them to feel that way lahhhh.

but i'm really relieved and glad and happy that wheeeee, they have me in their heart! :D

Xiaojun even went to the pharmacy to ask the pharmist what medicine is recommended for my situation.

Returned back to training after missing tuesdays and yesterday's.

It was quite funny because the team went to line up and was getting ready for warm up run,

and i was slowly, walking out of the sports complex just wanting to like sit and wait for them.

The girls was, "NONONO KELROY YOU STAY THEREEEE YOU DONT COME DOWN NO NEED TO RUNNNNN!!!"

hahahaha, hilarious.

before training they were still going like, "you dont train lah you suppose rest knowwww."

did as much as i can, though it hurts but still managable. :)

was pretty much treated like some...

hmm, i wouldnt say a princess or a casualty cause they rubbed salt onto my wound. =(

much more of a little kid or a fragile old woman.. =/

i was caught like walking down the stairs and they went, "you're not suppose to take the stairs you know!?"

damn hardcore and hahahaha, they just treated me like, i'm glass.

i wouldnt deny much that haha, yeah, quite dangerous but i'm not that weak lahhh!

but they really kept looking out for me, making sure that i'm taking care of my knee, myself. :)

heeeeee, they're wonderful still,

despite what Catherine said in the morning, what Xiaojun said in the afternoon and what Adeline said during lunch. hmph.

I still love them all. =)

Promise promise to take care of my kneee like me protecting golds and diamonds.

I dont want my 5 weeks holidays of training to go down the drain.

i've really placed in so much effort to see myself improve and all.

i want to paddle and continue paddling.

i want to be able to participate in the upcoming Polite and also next year's.

i really want to.

I dont really wish to talk about it.

i do feel like ignoring people when they ask.

but oh well.

life still goes on, no?

Parents on the other hand have been nagging much.

getting upset/angry with me that i still insist on training.

Daddy's last sentence to me this morning was rather..

hurting? =/

well, it got me feeling upset/angry/heartpain(for them).

I know that they do not want anything to happen to me,

& i'm gonna make sure nothing happens to me too.

Things on Joachim's side are more or less fine?

i guess he's more of worried than getting angry with my decision on continuing to train.

but i'm really thankful that hes supporting me and him, just being there for me.

always telling me to take care of my knee before training starts and asking hows my knee after training.

big thanks for cabbing down from school ytd to accompany me to have my xray taken,

to make me feel better, to make me less scared.

much lovezxzx!

ahhh,

finally its coming to the end of the week..

but no, weekends are packed with tons of stuff.

not to mention i still have to squeeze revision time into this packed weekend cause UT starts next monday.

and not forgetting i have work on sunday. 6pm - 11pm.

oh dear...

ok i'm tired and i think that boy wont be awake till tomorrow so...

goodnight! :D

Its friday, 30th october!

Its Sports & Exercise Nutrition tomorrow!

whee,

its gonna be a good day tomorrow. :)

goodnight!

Despite sleeping close to 1am ytd, decided to wake up at 7am to join Daddy & Mummy for breakfast. Popo came along too. :)

It feels nice, to have breakfast with them, telling them about school and some personal thoughts which i rarely do and also talking about Wilson & Xiuhui. Heh, sorry you twoo! However, the conversations we had really lighten me up, and made me felt a whole lot better.

I wouldnt really much, want to be the only child, though at times i really do enjoy personal times together with Dad or Mum or both of them. :)

I do love times when we all spend time together, wanting your turn to come to speak on the dinner table, also, laughing at jokes and sharing some stupid stories. heh.
I'm glad i have Xiuhui & Wilson okkk. :)

then i started confessing. :/

Mummy: I know ah! you only attended training on thursday..

Although i've been coming home late & all, i was really surprised that Mummy & Daddy knew what was going on.

Maybe its true that parents are somewhat smart and they do know, just that they dont speak.

Talking to them about it makes me feel better.

&, i dont know how, but the words they said, gives me hope.

& thats exactly what i need now, Hope.

Because this means so much to me and you have no idea how glad i am to have them, with me.

have not idea how much i love them, and how thankful and blessed i am.

fortunate, very much yes.

Because i have nothing but the best with what they've provided me with.

Enough said.

-

Time to pick myself up,

get back on track,

and continue at where i've stopped at.

Enough of resting,

time to catch up with the others.

-

Its Daddy's turn to be cute.

-

*Via sms*

Daddy: The more money I give you and the less time I see you. So when I miss you and want to see you more often, I know what to do..

Kelroy: Hahaha, its not that lah Daddy... From today till friday, I will be training at macritchie. Be my chauffer lah!

Daddy: I have to work harder for more money lay..

Kelroy: And i have to train harder to make sure your money dont go down to waste what..

-

Heh.

Anyway, Wilson is STILL growing and i actually mistook him for Daddy at times.

Bah, really tall lah...... T.T

Dont give me all sorts of rubbish and excuses.

Enough is enough.

Not that because its the time of the month of whatever.

yes, i do feel gloomy and shit but i swear i'm fine.

i got pretty irritated for the past few days over little things.

& also explains why im super tired and exhausted.

rest time was like never enough for me.

Losing blood is one thing.

Losing patience is another.

Before it gets really bad,

look, you're treading on thin ice, already.

come on come on..

Just 2 more days of shiong trainings.

Just 2 more days of this kind of long set shit.

Just 2 more days..

endure endure..

Friday's time trial...

Please please..

hang in there..

break(s) are coming.

its all gonna be worth it...

i know its all gonna be..

Its the last week of holidays.

I practically train the whole of my holidays away.

Its the last week, and im still gonna be training.

Exhausted, max.

I dont know how to deal with this.

I think after this 5 weeks of holidays, im used to have afternoon naps especially around the time of 1pm - 3pm like that.

Thats bad, I'm suppose to be doing ppt at that timing when school reopens.

ahhhhhhh.

Wednesday, Thursday, Friday.

"Series of time trials"

Sounds freakingly scary.

Training at macritchie, time trials at macritchie.

i sense danger.

The only thing that makes me happy training there now is that i'm able to bathe and smell nice on the way home.

Yishun totally banned the toilet facilities and we're not allowed to bathe there anymore.

what. the. hell.

I'm really tired.

i really wanna skip training and rest home now.

it gets really bad in the morning.

i dread doing speed work endurance now...

omgosh. just kill me and die man.

tiredddd.

I felt like Ironman today.

12 x 250m which i forgot we stopped at probably like 8th or 9th set?

3 max pull up, 2 x 12 ballistic throws.

followed by, the crucial one.

headed to the stadium.

6 x 400m sprint set.

Hello, i'm still alive.

Anyway, i got a little emotional while running on the track just now.

i swear i love running.

i really do... =(

but, no ability to, anymore. =(

Fucking sad.

Anw, im merely ranting and complaining my way through this post just ignore.

im just tired lah can anot. tmd.

ok,

I had a sinful dinner which cost me only $4.

like, no, you wouldnt wanna know what i've eaten but i swear it feels so good. (Y).

heh heh heh.

and and and,

Xiuhui told me she went running today.

cute or what.

Imagine my sister, smaller than me, going on a diet.

omg, how depressing.

What. Am. I. Doing. Tell. Me.

Joke of the week:

Mummy and I touched on the topic of lesbians while we were in the car heading home after dinner on Sunday.

She was sitting infront, and me at her back.

Mummy: yeah you better not like go mix around with them or what if not you become one.

Kelroy: *silent*

Mummy: *turns around* OR ARE YOU ONE!? EVERYTIME XIAOJUN XIAOJUN XIAOJUN!

Kelroy: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

-

Tell me my Mummy is cute too. ^^

-

-

Awesome, or what? :)

Alright, and welcome, my new pair of,

:D!

Thankyou Mummy!

& Lastly,

...

these adorable little ones!

Love you, Gangster. :)

Take a look hereeeeee.

i had fun at the beach with the 5 other mighty girls. :)

burnt, had fun and all, love them all.

Photos, at facebook! check them out! :)

Hereeee,

a chocolate caramel bar from another half, how sweet! :)

Heh, i have ai xin snacks from Xiaojun too ok!

Stop showing off ah, Angeline & Catherine.. :P

-

-

Was really depress today.

Nobody train on public holidays one lah. :(

but still, made it to LSR. complete training, and dinner with the family!

:)

thhhheeeennnn, a visit to Mama's place!

like, finally!?

WHEEE!!!!

-

-

Rae was around!

It was my first time seeing her and i actually carried her for quite some time? :D

Very serious girl know? Mama was feeding her and she started bawling.

Meiyi Jiejie says she doesnt like noise when shes being fed.

heh heh heh.

Ian has grown too!

So cute!!

i went like, Iannnnn!!! Do you remember meeee????

then he replied, ting ting gu guuuuuuu.....

AWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!

max max max. SO ADORABLEEE!

heh, very naughty boy alr. but still. a very loving brother towards Rae?

Refuse to let Mummy bring his mei mei home. haha.

Look at the two pictures he took together with Rae.

the way he twist. hahahaha, so cute please.

hee, he actually wanted to follow me home!?

He went to take his pampers and tell Papa, wanna change so can go home with me.

hahahaha! :)

so before he starts crying and all, i told him i'll visit him again! :)

-

OKOKOKOKOKOKOK NOW NOW NOW!

THIS ONE IS HARDCORE!

-

-

LOOK AT HOW TALL HE IS NOW!

EVERYWEEK HE JUST SEEMED TO BE TALLER AND TALLER AND TALLER ZOMGOSH!

please do something!? T.T

HAIYO MANNNNN!!!

Btw, just ignore his hair, its just, lol, not right, because his hair got this weird thing lah. haiya.

anyway, i like the first photo of me and Wilson? :)

very nice. hee. very look alike. :)

Afterall, day ended off well though i was really quite depressed in the morning.

T.T.

Goodbye Monday,

Hello Tuesday!

Looking forward to tomorrow.
- Team buffet lunch at Sakura. Coach's farewell's lunch.
- Heading with most of the canoeing girls to Sophia's farewell party.


Before i start on anything,

-

-

*click on it to enlarge and note the last paragraph*

Was checking my email when i saw Daddy's email.

-

The article link: http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/health/view/1001930/1/.html

-

Hee, i think Daddy has great ways of expressing himself too.

Not when he open his mouth though. :/

But the article do scare me.

Lenses are so convinient.

Not that my spectacles are not of good use or what but. :/

Lenses are really so much more convinient..

Gave training a miss today.

Though i was alr, out of the house and all.

The day wasnt wasted though i practically slept through it.

Slept, read, talk, sleep, eat, sleep, laugh, sleep. LOL.

I got this from Sobbina's onsugar.

-
当一个男人为一个女人哭了, 那说明他真的爱了.

-

Random? not at all.

Today, i've learnt alot.

Alot, alot.

I have so much to say, way too much.

-

Heh, familiar faces? i haven been taking much photos with them.

I thought we were eating out today but it ended up to be a family dinner at home.

A sudden decision to head to Island Creamery for ice cream. :)

Met up with Uncle Joei and family and we ate. :)

Had bandung & pulat hitam ice cream. :)

not bad, talked and did some catching up.

Between the kids, between the adults. :)

So yes, i've been cut away from the cyber world for long.

o.o.

So thursday was 3 session of trainings.

drained dead max.

I'm still wondering, where the hell did i get all those courage from.

Power comes with desperation.

Hmm, so true.

Friday training was also 3 session.

40mins run was the best.

Happily increase the speed, following the rhythm of the song,

ended up with both knees numbed.

Tried sleeping in the shed but mp3 was playing some screwed songs.

Kept next-ing and the batt went flat eventually. -.-.

Headed home after batheing, unpacked and packed.

out of house again.

I only had lets say less than 1 hour of rest that night.

That explains the chui eyes in the picture above.

Yes lah, geh kiang lah.

Friday 3 session training, dont wanna rest,

then next day got Coach Kaiyang's training somemore.

Totally headed into the shed, feeling fucking shag.

Gulped down the can of redbull which i got Cath to get for me.

Training started, and thankfully fartleg wasnt as tough.

Was on k1 today and im starting to get used to xiaoliangjing's tilting and gliding.

not bad, followed by 10 x 250m.

PT was not given but the other canoeist had to do 3 sprint sets.

I was excused due to the chui knees.

I feel like hammering and smashing my own knees at times.

like, picture me, taking a hammer, smashing my own knees.

then you see the bones, falling out, into pieces.

ahhh...

So it was kind of a terms and condition thing to argue with Coach to excuse us from PT.

I promised to attend training tomorrow and i will!

Will then head home to rest before heading to Night safari for work. :)

ahhh, this 4 weeks, tell me how am i going to survive.

Life is getting a little boring,
Training takes up monday - friday.

Work takes up wed morning and sunday afternoon.

Im left with the whole of sat and sun morning.

i need entertainment..

-
you're a miracle.

-

To add on to the previous long entry,

-

Sweet? :)

Of course,

She collects Honey know? :)

-

Wilson's Facebook, such a sweetheart. :)

The last time i saw him was, Sunday.

Before i left for work.

Sometimes i cant help but smile at the thought of him being so sensible & mature.

He actually misses me. :)

& knowing that makes me feel good.

-

Kel: *open room's door and stepped out*

Wilson(in his room): Wah, finally ah!

Kel: *smiles and head into his room*

Kel: yah lorh, i miss you know! *gave him a hug*

Wilson: So long never see you liao lorh..

-

Thats my little brother. :)

Hes currently standing at 172cm.

& fyi, 12 cm taller than me.

Tell me about it. :) hee.

I saw Mummy today, cause she didnt went to work.

I bought lunch for her.

I saw Daddy today.

Despite guan jie teng tong, went up to the study room,

hugged him from the back and asked if he missed me. :)

heeeeeeee.

Love the friends, the wees and of course, not missing you out. :)

:):).

hee, ok.

so work at 6pm - 12.30am ytd. T.T

Customers were like flooding the shop.

Alot of customers pissed me off.

rude, super rude, super mad, roar.

esp _. tskkk, hate it man.

i missed my company transport back to cck. =(

took cab mac.

Mercs, midnight charge. T.T

$10.80 please.

$10.80 = 2 hours of my pay!

FUCKING SAD PLEASE!

emo max, hurry home, bathe and hurry sleep.

I took quite awhile before i slept because i was damn awake.

Penned down my thoughts before sleeping.

Yeap.

Woke up at 6am, bathe, and took the paddle out.

Hate unwanted attention, swear.

Everyone was looking at me like as if i was a monster. =(

ITS JUST A LONG PADDLE WHY!?

And someone in the bus grab my paddle again.

and when i alighted the bus, the paddle was knocking the ceiling, pole or whatever like nobody's business.

super xintong! =(

thanks to the dragonboat competition held in LSR lorh. have to bring paddles home, then back to macritchie. grr.

Training was fine. till the second part.

knees went icy cold.

sigh, i dun want my knees to die on me, one more time, im gonna see a doctor. =(

sigh, rah, hate it.

PT, bathe, back to LSR to put back paddle, then lunch.

headed with Xiaojun, Angeline to take mrt back to west.

Sudden decision.

very impulsive! always one leh.

alighted at cck, to get our hair cut.

Nope, i'm not in a bad mood. Just wanted to cut.

No much diff lah, just that my left ear, very cold. LOLLLLL!

Xiaojun looks super cute. HAHAHAHAHA! Little elf.

movie with the wees tonight!

how happening!

family bonding yo!

LOL.

Then it would be training and working tomorrow. :)

That 6 long messages made me smile, laugh and read through over and over again.

Hmm, maybe it was me who overlook everything.

Didnt realise, didnt thought i would mean that much, to you.

I dont know about me,

but i know,

amazingly lovely.

-

-

Come to think about it...

sigh..

its true isnt it..

I guess no matter how much i dont wanna admit,

I'm spending lesser time with my family.

-

Monday - training.

Tues - juniors training.

Wed - training.

Thur- training.

Fri - working.

Sat - training & rest.

Sunday - training & work.

the only day i get to eat dinner with them would be saturday night.

Got to do something about it.

Thinking about it makes me feel so.. depress.

gahh.. sigh.

-

thank you xiu vee! ^^

Thats it.

Thats the end of NWKC.

Disappointed yes but still, overall im glad we made it into the finals.

200m & 500m.

Though 5th for both, it is ok.

New experience gained.

Especially the panicking moment when I caused the capsize of us both just right before the start of the race where all the boats were aligned. :/ Sorry Xiaojun.

But im really glad, because all that we've went through, thank God you stood by me. :)

Despite me being such a %#$#!#$%^&*%$! partner but still, you're patient enough to endure my nonsense.

Sorry for getting so affected for stupid things each time before race or training sets. :/

I will learn how to not bear grudges. I promise.

-

After Saturday & Sunday,

I saw the true colours of people.

Heartbreaking, it may be.

but i vowed never to let my J feel this way.
Never.

OK, time to get back everything.

Re-assembling all my thoughts and focus.

come again, once more.

1) School work & Canoeing.

2) Working.

3) Rest.

-

Yes, have been accepted and am going back to work.

Never in AMK anymore but i have to sacrifice to work for long hours.

Friday - 6 to 11.

Sunday - 2 to 11.

And I'll make it a MUST to eat dinner with my family every Saturday! :)

Nothing matters much more now than the Wees & the friends.

Life for the upcoming days would be tough.

Especially to juggle between school work, trainings & work.

but i'll try, i'm gonna try, my best.

& when week 16 comes, i promise to do my best in all the UTs.

& when i get my first pay, i'm gonna bring the Wees to Novena for a meal.

& when my knee recovers, i'm gonna start running like mad & train uberly hard.

& I'm gonna make sure, everything i've planned to do, i will do it.

& I'm gonna assure myself that, all the pain and hardwork, will be worth it.

Life is great.

Thank God for everyday!

:) Till then!

-

I have no pictures of you, Enna.

So there goes your little niece! :D

Lee Zuxian & Stella's photo is not in my lappie.

I'm not forgetting them!

Izzaidah, you're greatly missed too. :)

This post is equally random as this morning's.

However, it means alot.

This people above, played a part in my life.

Friends whom i can rely, for life.

Whom i trust, for life.

Especially the dearest canoeist girlfriends.

You guys are the one.

My pillar of strength,

thanks for being there, always.

Of course, there are many more people who contributes to

who i am today, what i am today.

but to not create any misunderstanding or mislead anyone.

I guess, it shall be left as,

*inserts picture*

*inserts picture*

*inserts picture*

yeap.

I realise i haven been taking photos with the angels.

I love my family, tons.

I mean it.

TONS.

Finally, i'm able to let everything out to Xiuhui.

omgosh, i've been waiting for this day for long.

Cause i know, your advice would be everything to me.

Yes, benchmark.

The One.

I've learnt from my mistakes.
I guess thats just the price i got to pay.

Thanks jie,

I love you.

If only i could turn back time...

Its ok.

I'm contented, now.

As long as everyone is fine and happy, I will be! :)

Words would be kept unspoken.

Till the time when its right.

Just dance, Gonna be ok.

:)

OK!

the only complain today,

is the butt.

=(

whines, im really fat.

i cant stand it.

No im not those kind who is hardcore skinny and hardcore whining that they're fat.

im seriously fat.

=(

I WANT TO EAT AND EAT AND EAT AND NOT GAIN WEIGHT!

=(

went for self training program given by coach.

im sure i ran more than 5km.

ran aimlessly, without anywhere to head to.

ups and downs.

and great. my knee injury is back.

=(

i. dont. like.

home, grab towel everything, head down to the gym.

gym facilities is reallly really limited.

no bar, no spare weights.

no assisted pull up machine.

no bench press.

only dumbells.

and bench.

oh well.

did what i could with what is there.

called wilson down to assist me for the pull up.

done and go homeeee.

then abs.

wah lao, seriously,

i hate the big fat tummy.

=(.

im gonna run tomorrow morning again.

oh goodness.

just kill me..

=(

really dont like.

cant even do pull up.

wth am i doing luh.

cant pull up,

cant shed fats.

=(

no strong abs,

no strong lats.

how?

kelroy = loser.

how depressing.

anw,

my day did start off well.

excluding the part where i woke up at 5am and felt cranky for awhile.

mummy drove me and xiuhui to the airport to picked daddy up.

:)

then we went for breakfast.

after that i went abit too high in car.

laughed like mad.

also, i started to receive text messages at around 6.20am which made my morning a better one.

super happy.

:)

ok i keep thinking its sunday today.

im heading out to eat belated father's day dinner.

yay.

no wait.

boo.

cause.

food = fat.

ARGH!!!!

IM FREAKING DEPRESSED!

I got birds in my ears
And a devil on my shoulder
And a phone to the other
And I can't get a hold of her
And what's a crush to do?
What's a crush to do when he can't get through?
-
Grammatically speaking you're adorable
And from what I hear you're quite affordable
But I like them pricey
So exaggerate and t-t-t-t-t-trick me
Pretty please, just trick me
Pretty please

roar, ok.

i miss my hair.

ok, i cant believe im saying this.

ok, im not regretting.

SERIOUSLY NOT!

Just prefer the previous hair.

but oh well.

its ok.

Grow, hair, grow!

Today was a good day.

shopping with Mum, Xiuhui & Wilson.

Bought sneakers and sportsbra.

:D

One more pair of crocs coming up.

woo!

thanks Mummy!

Pokes seems to be in a good mood today!

& that makes me happy too. :D

heee.

heart to heart talk.

deep & meaningful.

thankyou.

:)

I think its just me.

Time flies so quickly please.

met up with the seconday school mates ytd.

its good to have this kind of gathering once in a while.

to gossip, to chat, to update each other's life.

kind of a heartwarming feeling.

secondly, maybe i've been training real much,

till i dun see Wilson at home as often as i see Xiuhui.

I didnt realise how tall he've grown.

hahaha, hes a big boy now please.

i cant believe he was still shorter than me few years back!

Training today was so much better than ytd.

but theres still so much to work on.

jiayou Xiaojun,

i'm sorry for being so impatient.

Please forgive mee. T.T

jiayou, jiayou!

take care of yourself,

get well soon ogay!

I had a great day today.

Thankyou. :)