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301. To the graduating seniors..

Wednesday, December 2, 2009; 1:49 PM

Its not that i dont like the senior guys.

Or that i'm biased or so.

here you go,

words for the 5 big brothers..

Hairul: Captain, thanks for all that you've taught me the whole of this year. You're a great role model i looked up to, and i thank you for all that you've sacrificed for the team. Though, there were times i hate you to the max especially during year 1 due to certain reasons, its all over then. Thanks for being so irritating and random when i see your chat box conversation pop out from my windows. You do make one smile. :)

Benjamin: My Vice-Captain, kiss your mother _ ok? You and your horrible english that never fails to make me smile and laugh and tease you. But you never mind being the center of the joke. You're like some stupid aunty, always so kaypoh and likes to hear us gossip. Thanks for always calming everyone of us when things get bad. Thanks for everything that you've tried to make me understand. Nobody would ever forget that they have to bring 2 cloth for camp next time.

Yongann: Stupid olympic. another kaypoh aunty. Putting down all your good points, you have tons of bad points. I hate your attitude i swear, and how you always look down on FAT people! dont try to deny you ass! Thankyou, for always being so patient still, never once seen you really flare up badly. Continue your journey from here, and then i'll say, i know Ng Yong Ann, that canoeist who represented Singapore!

ChounMeng: The clown of the team. Thankyou for being yourself, and always saying stupid things that make coach pump you and never ever once mind being the joke of the team too. The trademark word of yours - Chui~~. A caring senior, though you seems like those who bochup everything but afterall, you were great in your way. :)

Yudi: I remember when i first got up to T1, you sat beside me and taught me how to get in, i capsized and still, you helped me get up, empty the boat, and then helped me again. Yes, have not won your c1 in paddling K1 yet. but i would miss the times when the t1s fought with you tgt. come back and be pacer kae! :)

Hello Mummy, thanks for your guidance and your stupid psychotic mind that wanna burst people's balloon! Joanne, thanks for everything. really, i dont know what else to say now. so ok bye. LOL, please continue being such a dearest mummy and come back and take care of the team kae.

Hello daddy, LOL! noooo. you're the mouse in the team, always damn quiet. for reason nobody knows why. but still, you're like so talkative when it comes to smsing and msning. though i really gets really pek cek cause you're always so dao and shitty, still, thanks for all the encouragement and advices. i know i'm not an elephant. thanks bev. :)

Fishy: i wouldnt forget that very time when you offered me a big hug when i'm feeling so down. You, full of nonsense, never fail to get amazed by little little things. Then you're act like some kiddo when you're the tallest among all of us. and you'll be so happy. You'll get cheap stuff, nice donuts and matisu. :) i realise i dont really have a picture of just both of us but here you go, though its cropped but heeeee.

Adeline, lets start from here. The very first time we met to the first photo of both of us. I wouldnt deny because i knew you before you knew me and therefore going up to you, wanting to join canoe. You told me alot of stuff and tell me that enthu people tend to quit after going for trials. have i proved you wrong? you were the first senior that got so close to me and still is. :). Thankyou, for all the times when you've encouraged me, blogged for me and do silly things together. :) not forgetting the bad times when you tried to kill me. =(. and also, the times when i felt like killing you cause of your temper. but still, you're great. very very. i hope i could ever reach up to your standard some day. :) and also, i'll miss the times when we napped in LSR during the 5 weeks vacation and you'll always be the first person i wake up seeing. :) much misses ade(eddy).

last but not least, the REAL WOMAN of the 5 girls. heh. :). thanks for being ever so kiasu and aunty together with ben and yongann that never fails to make us laugh like some shit. you always rush and try to do things first and always make yourself look like a fool and have all of us laughing at you. will definitely miss your voice and your complaints. and your trademark phrase, I TELL KENGWI! HAHAHAHAHA! sihong, sihong.. :)

There.. time to soon step down. just a few words...

You're the big ass i swear. but i really have to thank you cause there were times you were of such great help and i couldnt do it without you. thanks for always being there to try to cover up for me. and being such a irritating fellow. hehe. thanks jaff, it was great working with you. really great.

eh ken, i dont have a picture of us together so tada. dont know if you would remember this photo, but stillllllllllllllll, hee. doesnt matter. you and your hot temper. im amazed by the patience i have in myself as not to give you a punch that sends you to outer space. times where you screwed all the 3 other captains and we all felt like killing you but you know what ken, cause of you, i guess we realised things faster and do things better. :) you're gonna graduate with the rest of the seniors and we'll definitely miss that skinny boy running around in tights and a white cap. hahaha. you and your stupid nonsense. you take care ok!

AND LASTLY TO CATH!

omggggggggggggggggggg. how would i have ever complete this whole year without you. thankyou soooooooooooo damnnnnn bloodddddddyyyyy much for tolerating with my give up shits and always telling me fuck you lah kel and go and die. cause despite all those, you've not fucked me and i'm still alive hahaha. thanks for always always trying to help me in ways or another, telling me to be strong tgt, we're gonna do this tgt and trying so hard to manage the stupid rebellious team. thanks so much. theres so much more but i'll do it on a seperate note ok.

big thanks meow, i owe you one.

Cheers to the 2 oldest male captains and the 2 youngest female captains.

Super cheers to the awesome 5 senior girls.

MEGA CHEERS TO RPC & COACH!

BEST DAMN THING EVER.

RPC, SAH!

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298. POLITE 2009.

Friday, November 27, 2009; 9:50 PM

28th November.

Intensive trainings ever since forever.

down to this day.

all for this day.

this major competition of the year.

What we've waited for long,

what we've been putting our heart and soul into.

here you go.

Less than 2 hours.

All water warriors from Republic Canoeing IG,

tomorrow is the day,

once again, we're gonna show them, its not gonna be an easy fight.

we're gonna do it, we're gonna prove it.

we will.

to the 6 partners,

i guess im the lucky one to have, 6 different partners eh?

straight finals, and all 7 of us know how much we want this.

so lets do it.

and elimate thoughts of regretting.

here we go.

to the remaining 2 girls.

Angeline, its your first year, participating in polite, and a great year, to actually have you as a frontman, and showing all of us your ability of being aggressive, high in frequency, and being such a strong girl.

You're gonna make it through the finishing line. I believe you're so much more stronger than what we've all seen in ncc/nwkc. Jiayou.

Xiaojun, *pause*

*pause*. *stone*. *pause*.

ok, maybe you'll read my mind, maybe you're not able to.

no point penning down all this thoughts here.

in anw, have i ever told you, you make a good backman?

:), the 3 girls ought to be lucky to have you, gun, engine or whatever. :)

show it girl, you know you can do it.

& to the real men of the team,

theres nothing much else to say,

you guys all know it yourself.

nothing left to hold back.

so, whack hard!

i guess, psychology assignment really can wait.

right now,

this is what i want.

tomorrow.

Coach Kaiyang came back today.

This is a great morale boost for all of us.

so come on and show what we've got.

You know, you can.

LAI, SAH!

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283. That body's like music to my ear.

Thursday, October 29, 2009; 10:20 PM

Heh, the best teammates i'll ever get. :)

heartfelt thanks to each and everyone of you.

i'm touched, very very.

i dont know how to express my thoughts now.

but i'm really surprised and happy.

very thoughtful team of girls i have with me.

& thank God for them, because without them, i wouldnt be as strong as i am now.

8 of them, yes, 8 of them,

concerned & worried.

not that i'm mean enough to allow them to feel that way lahhhh.

but i'm really relieved and glad and happy that wheeeee, they have me in their heart! :D

Xiaojun even went to the pharmacy to ask the pharmist what medicine is recommended for my situation.

Returned back to training after missing tuesdays and yesterday's.

It was quite funny because the team went to line up and was getting ready for warm up run,

and i was slowly, walking out of the sports complex just wanting to like sit and wait for them.

The girls was, "NONONO KELROY YOU STAY THEREEEE YOU DONT COME DOWN NO NEED TO RUNNNNN!!!"

hahahaha, hilarious.

before training they were still going like, "you dont train lah you suppose rest knowwww."

did as much as i can, though it hurts but still managable. :)

was pretty much treated like some...

hmm, i wouldnt say a princess or a casualty cause they rubbed salt onto my wound. =(

much more of a little kid or a fragile old woman.. =/

i was caught like walking down the stairs and they went, "you're not suppose to take the stairs you know!?"

damn hardcore and hahahaha, they just treated me like, i'm glass.

i wouldnt deny much that haha, yeah, quite dangerous but i'm not that weak lahhh!

but they really kept looking out for me, making sure that i'm taking care of my knee, myself. :)

heeeeee, they're wonderful still,

despite what Catherine said in the morning, what Xiaojun said in the afternoon and what Adeline said during lunch. hmph.

I still love them all. =)

Promise promise to take care of my kneee like me protecting golds and diamonds.

I dont want my 5 weeks holidays of training to go down the drain.

i've really placed in so much effort to see myself improve and all.

i want to paddle and continue paddling.

i want to be able to participate in the upcoming Polite and also next year's.

i really want to.

I dont really wish to talk about it.

i do feel like ignoring people when they ask.

but oh well.

life still goes on, no?

Parents on the other hand have been nagging much.

getting upset/angry with me that i still insist on training.

Daddy's last sentence to me this morning was rather..

hurting? =/

well, it got me feeling upset/angry/heartpain(for them).

I know that they do not want anything to happen to me,

& i'm gonna make sure nothing happens to me too.

Things on Joachim's side are more or less fine?

i guess he's more of worried than getting angry with my decision on continuing to train.

but i'm really thankful that hes supporting me and him, just being there for me.

always telling me to take care of my knee before training starts and asking hows my knee after training.

big thanks for cabbing down from school ytd to accompany me to have my xray taken,

to make me feel better, to make me less scared.

much lovezxzx!

ahhh,

finally its coming to the end of the week..

but no, weekends are packed with tons of stuff.

not to mention i still have to squeeze revision time into this packed weekend cause UT starts next monday.

and not forgetting i have work on sunday. 6pm - 11pm.

oh dear...

ok i'm tired and i think that boy wont be awake till tomorrow so...

goodnight! :D

Its friday, 30th october!

Its Sports & Exercise Nutrition tomorrow!

whee,

its gonna be a good day tomorrow. :)

goodnight!

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248. Even if the sky is falling down.

Monday, September 14, 2009; 12:20 AM

Ok, first up!

TAKE A LOOK AT RPC'S WORDPRESS!

BIG THANKYOU TO BEVERLY BRENDA KIM! :)

Very nice, very cute, very very goodzx. :D

http://republicanoe.wordpress.com/

Second, Adeline's Livejournal!
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the Pol-ite feel is finally here.
to attend training, to train hard, to give it our best no matter how fatigue we may be feeling
its to the extend that our hands turned cold and numb, injuries starts to hurt but just continue to grit our teeth, flinging our arms, twisting our bodies, kicking and pulling, every strokes making the best of it.
know what's the best part?
it's when you turn around and see that you're not alone.
that you see the other 8 girls,undergoing the same shit as you, enduring the same pain and motivating.
9 K1 boats all lined up together, every now and then, full attendance.
how often do you see such a scenario. its totally un- describable

girls who don't bother much about getting their hair all short (except for cath and sihong)
girls who doesnt mind being bulky and tanned up like African kids
girls who doesnt bother when the guys said " huh, our team where got girls? all so man"
girls who train and play hard like nobody's business at the same time
tell me where to find such amazing girl's team

Pol-ite is going to be the last race for the senior batch.
lets make it happen this year. last year we had the women championship, this year, both.
we have been training really hard, continue striving and we will reap what we sow.
lets not even bother about those irritating whiney ones for now for they will only get into our nerves and make us suffer even more.

LAI ! lets all do it together. to both guys and girls who are worthy. Republic Canoe SA!
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Ahhh. how nice. :)

Makes me smile. heeeeeeee.

OK, its gonna be monday.

Another week of intensive training.

I took leave for the whole of this week.

Training + Fun + Relaxing. :)

Lets see.

Monday - head down to Wilson's chalet after training. His engagement party! :) Then Nat's gonna give me a lift home since he stays nearby and whee, good. saves alot of trouble. :)

Tues - Training + steamboat(??).

Wed - Might have plans in the morning followed by training.

Thursday - Training.

Friday - TGIF! Training + Chilling.

Sat - Family day.

Sunday - Sentosa~ :)

Ahh. perfect!. :)

agreee with me.

OK work was quite retarded today.

haiya, nothing much to say anyway.

Anyway morning went to help out at the Mizuno wave run at NYP.

we were complaining like, damn gehkiang and all but oh well, we did had fun.

Baggage was chaotic esp when runners collect their bags but haha, shutter run, running forward and backward, shouting of toto numbers. heh. cooliozx. :)

Where do you find this kind of events with your teammates helping out.

Though there were only mostly senior guys + full attendance from girls, still, we had our own fun.

Though didnt get jersey size but all was fine.

Just that i woke up at 4am, spent $10.50 early in the morning cabbing to Xiaojun's place.

then another $6 to NYP.

Followed by me whining badly, close to flaring up at everybody because the migraine was like, wanna trigger dont wanna trigger off.

Heh, after awhile was fine.

Till leaving NYP, trained home with Xiaojun. :)

her turn to whine. haha.

Reached home bathe smack straight into bed till 2.30. bathe again and work!

OK NOTHING MUCH ALR RIGHT!

oh, meet up with Yeewen, Michelle and Mr Cris.

hmm, still alright? didnt really catch up alot. but better than nothing.

many thoughts, but, forget it.

OK.

THE END. :D

So.. let me see...

yknow, your words worked like magic.

unpredictable, special, surprising, and O.O!

yeah, like that.

everything that comes from you never fails to bring comfort to me.

The way you ease my mind is like, way damn unique.

"you like my sugar, my sugar, you so sweet, so sweet."

heh.

hello gangster,

where are you?

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245. The Mighty Ones.

Saturday, September 12, 2009; 11:20 AM

I like this photo alot.

The 5 seniors look exceptionally good.

Sihong looks (Y).

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The 4 little ones. :D

Ok like i was saying, i guess as compared to other girls who are training,

They would mind about getting big, getting tanned and all.

But RPC girls just whack, without fear, without bothering getting bulked up and all.

Thats the difference.

& look at other teams and you see all the ponytails.

Ours just keep getting shorter. :/ (except cath's and sihong's)

Polite would be the senior's last race.

& no matter how hard i try to convince myself that, its ok, still can keep in contact what..

but fuck, i sure do will miss them, like a whole lot. =(

ok no emo kae.

yeah, anyway, all the strength speed endurance training is making me bulked up.

I mean it.

I dont usually gain alot from training, like last year or whenever.

But this time, just this time, i feel it.

My arms, my shoulder, fwah.

Not fat not fat luh!! >=(

just, very big, thats all. :/

OK WHATEVER!

I LOVE THE GIRLS! :D

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243. Fire burning.

; 12:20 AM

i mean it when i said just shut up and train.
Seems like some people are still -.- damn. -.-. like that.
very irritating, very annoying.
this feeling is getting worse eh. -.-
its not a good sign.
i bear grudges much, know?

So i guess neither of us realise we've been training 2 weeks straight this way?
3 sessions of training everyday.
Crazy as it may seemed.
Appetite has grown, like, alot.
Despite burning lesser than the others due to the knee & not running tgt with the team but still, i'm burning the carbo so i guess its still fine to remain the appetite this way.
As it came to one point that, we either sleep and rest in the bus, or in the shed.
Excluding Monday & Thursday since we head back to RP to gym.
Tues, Wed, Friday. After lunch = head back to the shed to sleep.
I'd then go to that spot of mine, make myself comfortable, and then drift off.
Its quite nice to sleep there, really. :)
I mean, i think LSR has become another home for me and that, though its like filled with leaves, some ants crawling here and there, i guess i wouldnt really mind much but to just lay down and, sleep. :D

Training is turning like a crazy shit for all of us.
I swear! Its like, crazy, insane, & you just go to break through all your emotions, mental barriers and everything. Cause its impossible to go through just the motion and then pack up and go home. I swear you'd learn something and get something before packing up and heading home in the evening.

Yesterday we did 30s on 30s off. it was CRAZY. Frequency and power must be there and executing it was mad terrible. Your arms are flinging all around, no matter how tired, how sore, you just got to keep going. I swear at the end of ytd, satisfied much but it was really chui.
Today was 1 min on and 30s off. another chui session of training. luckily it was evening. morning session was 8 x 250m with a short hose tube tied underneath the boat which causes great resistance and paddling, kicking and twisting was like, WHACK SUDDEN AND HARD. like, hen tong leh. =(.

Yes, knee is, like, bad, *shake head* bad.
idk what else i can say alr. i just got to keep relying on tape. hoping and wishing i'd get through all till after november 29.

Training is crazy. Pain is crazy. but believe me when i say i'm loving the pain.
The feeling of your body feeling sore and sour when you wake up in the morning makes you wanna cry but deep down, the sense of achievement and satisfaction would be there, no doubt.
I believe, after this 5 weeks of intensive training, i will grow stronger.
Especially in mentality, definitely, much more stronger.
You just wouldnt know how crazy it is.
I just dont know how to let you know.
Thank goodness, the 8 girls are with me.
Tell me about it.
RPC mighty girls.
9 of us, paddling in k1, full attendance, chionging together.
Believe me when i say its a beautiful sight.
Beauty that you do not see on the external but internal.
just 9 boats, 9 girls, giving their best, heading towards the same direction, sharing only one goal.
tell me about it.

Check out facebook for our photos kae. :)

So like since it was running for the 2nd session of training today, everyone went ahead and i was left in the shed alone.
Pulled the stool over to my favourite corner, sat down and started reading, A Walk To Remember.
Filled with emotions, thoughts, and all sorts of those words you can relate to.
The rain started getting heavier. It was some kind of add on ambience shit thing that makes my mood even more. omg.
I swear i was so into the story and i started going crazy and people who came back from the run thought i was crazy.
gahh. end up crying, end up drying up the tears and end up tearing again.
Gosh.. (Y). the book was a good one, a very good one.
So again, i've learnt something new today! :)
The book was really great.

Today is friday, & i didnt have to work.
So head straight home after training today.
Unpacked and head out to meeting Xiaojun, Angeline & Joachim for supper.
Then back to Northvale playing games, having random talks and yeah, time to go home.
ok this is random but im staring out my balcony. the moon is, really nice tonight?
like, orangy red though its half covered by clouds but its really pretty.

Yay to weekends, sleep in more?
nahh.
I'm meeting Mr Cris, Yeewen & Michelle tomorrow evening for lunch. :)
Sunday 6.30am at NYP for helping out at the Mizuno run, then chionging down to the zoo to work at 3 - 11pm.
then its back to intensive training again!

Days are getting pass very very fast.
It gets a little torturous at times but i knocked off fast enough before i start having wild imaginations.
I wouldnt really say that everyday was a good day because, things are just not ok.
I hate pretending that things are fine.
I hate going through everyday like this. but.
I really dunno what else i can do.

-

It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to you
I might just disappear.

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

Oh, it's like

One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,

Oh, it's like

Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life

Nobody wins when everyone's losing

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh
It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.

It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad and I
Can't change your mind, oh
It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be

I don't need what you're giving me.

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240. Tell me why.

Sunday, September 6, 2009; 7:37 PM

This would be the best part of my life in RP.

I wanna work/fight hard.

For Coach, the team, RP, myself, & anotherhalf.

*edit*

VERY ANGRY NOW. LOAD THE VIDEO FOR SO LONG.

AND IT JAMMED AT THE 54MINS AND REFUSE TO CONT MOVING!

argh, facebookkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.... T.T

damn rubbish.

& like i've said,

i'm really happy with what i have now.

no point bringing back the past.

dont make it sound like as if you were the great guy & im the bad one.

but because of what have happened made me stronger.

It shows true colours of everyone.

& im glad i've let go of all, because its just not worth it anymore.

so, you live your life, and i'll live mine?

you moved on and i did so too.

Fair? :)

*editted*

Thats it, i totally lost all the photos of Yuanyuan's birthday celebration at Marche.

FUCKING SAD PLEASE.

I dont know what happen.

I only have the video of Joachim challenging Yuanyuan to finish up the cake.

Sigh to the ultimate max.

That day we took lots of group photos with the cows lorh.

*emo max*

*emo to the ultimate max*

Anw, so much for wanting to work at chunkfest but decided not to.

11am - 11pm siazx.

heh, plus i have dinner plans that night. so yeapp. :)

Meeting Mr Cris, Yeewen and Michelle. :)

Gave work a miss today.

Yesterday was. ok lemme think of a word to describe.

I just felt very tired.

Was telling Asha, for once i hope im the one thats drunk.

Many bruises. all the kicking pushing punching and all.

Never judge a book by its cover ahhh. *looks at Adeline*

Got home in the afternoon, took a good bath.

Slept till Dad woke me up for dinner.

It hurts when it was you who spoke those words.

I'm hopeless.

I'm a disappointment.

Yes, fucking hopeless.

be disappointed in me.

I'm sorry.

kbye.

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239. I'll never let you fall.

Friday, September 4, 2009; 9:21 PM

Looking forward to tomorrow.
- Team buffet lunch at Sakura. Coach's farewell's lunch.
- Heading with most of the canoeing girls to Sophia's farewell party.

Before i start on anything,

*click on it to enlarge and note the last paragraph*

Was checking my email when i saw Daddy's email.

The article link: http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/health/view/1001930/1/.html

Hee, i think Daddy has great ways of expressing himself too.

Not when he open his mouth though. :/

But the article do scare me.

Lenses are so convinient.

Not that my spectacles are not of good use or what but. :/

Lenses are really so much more convinient..

Gave training a miss today.

Though i was alr, out of the house and all.

The day wasnt wasted though i practically slept through it.

Slept, read, talk, sleep, eat, sleep, laugh, sleep. LOL.

I got this from Sobbina's onsugar.

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当一个男人为一个女人哭了, 那说明他真的爱了.

当一个女人为一个男人而哭，那说明她真的受伤了.

Random? not at all.

Today, i've learnt alot.

Alot, alot.

I have so much to say, way too much.

Don't cry, not anymore.

Cause its not only a shattered heart.

but i'm also badly torn apart.

you have no idea how bad the sinking of the heart was,

when i felt your tears rolling down the back of my neck.

No more, no more next time.

No more making you cry.

Heres my promise made tonight.

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196. In your eyes, i see the missing pieces.

Friday, July 24, 2009; 9:38 PM

waiting for sihong's cam's photos to be uploaded on FB before i post it out here. :)
i do have some uploaded on FB alr. :)
but i want the full group photo!

friday, the day before NWKC. Made a pact with the 8 girls in the team,

to dress up, and go for carbo load at pastamania. :D

The plan to head town was cancelled because i was really feel very tired and restless.

not only me horr. :/

but still we did had fun at causeway point right!!!

please say yes.

attendance this week for school was bad.

nevermind. just damn screwed by some shit that happened.

i guess things are clearing up, i hope. :/

Tomorrow would be Nationals Women Kayak Championship.

My first year participating.

And the last year, the 5 seniors will participate in.

Screw RP, because we stopped training closed to 1 month, and not being able to compete under RP.

Expectations, definitely, i have for my own, and the girls have for themselves.

No matter what, i'm gonna give my best, despite not training intensively before NWKC.

I'm gonna whack hard, give my best shot, and cross the finishing line with regretting.

Xiaojun always says, Every stroke counts.

And trust me, i'm gonna make every single stroke counts.

Jiayou Xiaojun,
Jiayou to the other 7 girls.

No matter what the outcome is, know that you've given ur best shot,

& we're all here for you.

To the 8 Mighty Girls + Me!

JIAYOU, NO MATTER WHAT, JIAYOU!

Each and everyone of you,

get that in your mind;

To do our best, and be proud of ourselves.

Promise?

Promise.
=)

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158. One last time.

Friday, June 19, 2009; 11:12 PM

i shouldnt be affected by whatever is happening.

not here, not now.

its not gonna work yo,

its not.

Few more hours, and here we go.

Confidence, strength, faith, hope.

something, that i need all in all tomorrow.

Determination, perseverance.

I know i want this badly.

I know we all want this badly.

the green band on my hand states Confidence.

the blue band on my hand states Team.

& the red band, that was given to me for one month plus,

as a motivation.

I have to do this.

I'm gonna do this.

For once, for all.

Thanks for the prayer.

Thanks for calming me down whenever i got all nervous just now.

Power comes with desperation.

Go Kelroy,

Go Republic Canoeist!

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150. Canoe camp 2009.

Friday, June 12, 2009; 10:05 PM

HELLLOZXZXZXZXZXZ!

ok, i've lost my voice.

my voice is super, deep and rough. :/

it sounds weird when i start laughing.

okkkk~~~

Camp was, not too boring, not too bad?

just alright. :)

did enjoy myself at certain part of times.

all i know was that im really drained from the first day's training.

especially land training.

Circuit totally killed me.

2 mins of 7 exercises can die.

especially tricep and benchpress.

knock the weights twice on the back of the neck bone while doing tricep. =(

teared a little.

pain okkk...

but after circuit, my arms were screaming in pain.

shaking, shivering. =(

madnessssssss.

second day more relax. but still, it was really scary.

k4 is getting better. so is k2.

switch boat to rp 12.

Hope things will get rather fine.

please please please.

i really need to get used to the rudder asap.

no matter what.

Boats have been shifted to macritchie and i hope training for tomorrow will get better and sunday too!!!!

*starts to chant and pray*

Its one more week to NCC.

thinking about it, makes me uneasy all over.

im really nervous.

its my first race on K2.

my third race with Xiaojun.

My first race on k4 with the k4 crew. :)

Jiayou, jiayou, jiayou!

and my parents are coming down on sunday to support me?

so random, so weird, so. i dunno. :/

but still.

oh well.

gonna whack hard and do my best.

Come on Xiaojun!

Come on K4!

We're gonna make it!

anddddddddd. i dropped my black everlast watch into LSR.

i cried over it for like i dno how long. =(

Placed in on the tape of the 3rd comain of k4.

tape totally came off when we capsized and there goes my beloved watch.

no words can describe how i was feeling at that point of time.

tears just gushed out like nobody's business.

and yeah, to those who think i was crying over something stupid, please go and die.

sigh.

It meant alot to me.

it meant so much to me.

i've only owned it for like 5 months plus.

Its not even half a year old.

im really fucking sad.

and really, really, nothing could be done, and im feeling, super upset.

jie, im really sorry..

i know you're really angry and upset over this but im really sorry.

my bad, that i didnt take good care of it. im sorry.

wrong person to seek comfort to.

your reply was unexpected.

it hurts.

but, forget it.

nothing much matters anm.

Im gonna head to bugis to get a new watch tomorrow.

i know its not gonna be the same meaning or whatever.

but, im really sorry jie.

I wont forget that you've put in great efforts to get it for me as my 18th birthday present.

I love you still, please forgive me.

sigh, heavy hearted when i passed by the spot i dropped the watch. =(

sigh, couldnt do anything much.

guilty, yet... sigh.

ok, im gonna turn in soon.

i didnt really get much rest during camp.

goodnight.

i'll try to update as much as possible.

trainings, UTs, school, NCC.

soon, see you.

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146. Photos up!

Friday, June 5, 2009; 8:30 PM

ok, here are some of the DSLR shots from Glitz.

im really lazy to like, upload all, if you guys interest, head to facebook! :D

TADAAAA!!!!

heeeee, presenting RPC! :D:D

anyway, ytd night was a blast. hah.

caught the first train home, bathe and out to meet pokes.

home made scramble eggs for breakfast please. :)

delicious. *slurps*

Thankyou!~

totally am tired the whole day.

roar ttm.

taken ytd. :)

and i really like the first photo of this post.

really nicely taken. :)

this was taken like, a few days back.

:).

k4 ytd was fine i guess.

much more to improved on but we'll take it slowly.

endurance land training was really argh.

my arms was screaming like mad. =(

hmm, training tomorrow.

oh man.

one week of holidays, past like that.

training is like, really taking up almost all the days.

but nvm, ncc is approaching.

wah stress ttm.

nvm, camp next week!

looking forward though.

it wasnt your fault ok.

stop feeling guilty and apologising.

she didnt scold me. :)

and thanks for getting me Boost. :)

hahaha,

dont feel sad anymore, cheer up!

oh oh, and thanks for the very very sweet letter.

surprisingly, you remembered small little details too. :)

heee, see you tomorrow!

/edit

sigh, suddenly,

chocolates, dont really make me happy anymore..

this feeling is taking me down.

i dont like it.

i dont want it.

i cant possibly eat and continue eating to vent it all out.

sigh, its not gonna work this way.

dont you just see the way i see things as?

i miss you.

/editted.

Labels: K4, Photos, Team, Training

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126. 就是我; 林俊杰.

Friday, May 22, 2009; 10:26 PM

我想了十几个夜晚我想我一直都在想
什么是完美的感动我想到开始头痛
你说不定也是一样想要爱却害怕遗憾
你说不定也很希望我可以比你勇敢

躺在星空下的草地上
心事全都摊开让你看
满天星星张大眼睛盯著我
想要说

任他们说他们看我都不管
我只要宣布爱你的人就是我
对没有错就是要
简简单单就是我爱你爱我
不需要啰嗦

我想了十几个夜晚我想我一直都在想
什么是完美的感动我想到开始头痛
你说不定也是一样想要爱却害怕遗憾
你说不定也很希望能和我交个朋友

躺在星空下的草地上

心事全都摊开让你看

满天星星张大眼睛盯著我

想要说

任他们说他们看我都不管

我只要宣布爱你的人就是我

对没有错就是要

简简单单就是我爱你爱我

不需要啰嗦

Finally,

another friday.

my free day,

my break.

Great evening; well spent.

Roam around raffles place to city link and to MS.

sat down and had dinner.

walked to bugis.

took train home after that.

nothing much to elaborate on.

ok, maybe i have.

in summary:

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D!

*grins widely*

RP inter race tomorrow,

just a little tensed up.

I know i need courage and confidence.

I know i need just a little more effort.

Jiayou Kelroy.

Jiayou RPC.

Thanks for everything.

The songs you sang, the words you said.

you kept my mind calm.

thankyou.

I'm proud of you.

Trust me, I am.

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121. Kinder Joy.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009; 10:52 PM

The above 2 girlfriends piggybacked me today. :)

I've been asking for piggybacks this few days.

I dont used to do that.

Aye, reason being simple.

my weight is decreasing.

so ok luh, not that heavy alr mah! hahaha.

Mood have been high and low this few days.

Luckily i have great friends around me.

Esp the above 2 beloved girlfriend.

One is my bee(Adeline), one is my (i'll go think of a name to call Xjun).

hahahaha,

this is super random and i feel like laughing each time i see Xiaojun's blog post.

go check it out yo.

hahaha.

Strength test on monday just shows everything.

Efforts paid off. :)

well done, Kelroy.

Well done, to the whole team, infact. :D

RP CANOE SAH SAH SAH!

My days are dedicated to canoe.

My life revolves around canoe,

enough said.

Don't get it?

I love RPC.

you've been feeling up and down recently too, i've noticed.

i'm here for you, don't give up.

I'll try my best, to make things right.

we're gonna do this together.

cheer up, pokes.

-
Yes, for you that place is here.
Don’t worry, don’t falter anymore.
I will protect you.

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080. Team Dinner!

Wednesday, April 8, 2009; 8:45 PM

OK, team dinner on Monday was quite a blast. :)

Though attendance was not full, occupying the whole long table of Thai Express was good enough and we were really noisy. And to think that the Manager believes that it was my birthday. Ahh, very good ah. Make use of me get free food.

The early birdies!

Its been long. We've come so far.

Here we are, the 9 mighty ones. :)

GIRL POWERRR!

Team RPC. :D

And to think they made so much noise! and they sang so many birthday songs, they crap they scream they run and they actually wanted to do the RPC cheer like really wanna woosh.

I ran off and i turn back in time to saw what exactly happen and the next morning i woke up batheing recalling of that incident, i was laughing to myself. hahaha.

Its quite funny that almost all were enthu in the cheer,

when Jaffar went, "READYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!"

AND EVERYONE RAN IN DIFFERENT DIRECTIONS!

HAHAHAHAHAHA!

DAMN FUNNY SHOULD HAVE RECORDED IT DOWN HAHAHAH!

i think no one expect Jaffar's "READY!" was so loud. HAHAHA

ANDDDDD!!!

This two lovely friends of mine bought jibbitz for me.

The one i wanted long ago, and i was really really happy. :)

SEE SEE SEEE!

VERY VERY CUTE RIGHT!

BIG THANKS TO JINKANG & XIAOJUN!

This skunk name is Flower.

SO CUTE SO CUTE SO CUTE!

Look closely, it has a belly button.

AHHHHHH!!!!! SO CUTE!

So its back to walking a few steps, looking down and going, "SO CUTEEE!" again!

AND DAMN YUSRI FOR STEPPING ON IT IM GONNA KILL YOUUUU! ROAR!

ok, more photos on Facebook. check it out yo!

Today's sun burned all those who did pyramid.

Im a lobster. *sings under the sea~*

my face is really red and my shades tan lines are damn freaking cool.

HAHAHA.

I like Fishy & Xiaojun's one!

damn cool damn cool.

Ade's batman looks cool too. hehehehe~

Ok im really tired and theres training tomorrow.

so rest early! ROAR!

It was really weird to be thinking of you while paddling just now.

I do not want that day to come.

I do not know what will i feel.

I will feel scared.

I will feel lost.

I will miss you.

Im sad that whatever is happening.

Im trying my best to give the best that i can to you.

I hope, you would see, that, I do love you, afterall.

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071. Unbelievable.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009; 9:35 PM

My best T2/K2 Partner.

Her name is Gan Sheau Jun.

ok, i have alot of pictures i will upload them slowly.

I've yet gotten all the pictures.

Slowly yeap!

Went for a run with Drey this morning.

Wasnt really productive though.

Managed to run up till bukit gombak.

Took a 10 mins walk.

Jogged back to CCK.

Stopped at Sunshine place to get a drink.

We walk/jog back to Lot 1.

Next week would be better. :)

See you.

Recommendation by Joyce. :)

Headed to Toy Museum with Joshua today.

I thought i was more excited than him. :/

The place was really cool but i thought it was bigger.

Then went for lunch at some Hainanese chicken rice store.

Heh, did i mention both of us were Hainanese? :)

The only difference is, I understand and speak Hainan and he doesnt. Hah.

Supposed to head Town but was really tired so back to the west.

Slept from 2 till 5.30. :/

As Popo aged, her demands are getting a little ridiculous.

Still, we try our best to give her what she wants and what she needs.

What about you?

Because your wife doesnt get along well with Popo thats why you're not taking care of her?

Im speechless.

Its definitely not easy for Daddy to take care of her even when she does things that we do not like. We still love her and we dont ignore her.

Ever since her fall, things may have been worse.

She cant bathe herself, feed herself, or even do simple stuff like pouring a cup of water or making a cup of coffee.

Just ask yourself what have you done for her.

亏她还那么爱你. 最爱的就是你.但你为了她做了什么?

Training starts tomorrow.

Demoralise yes but thats where determination comes in.

Jiayou.

Meeting Bryan & Joey for dinner tomorrow. :)

It seems long since i last saw them.

Hope it wouldnt be an awkward evening.

I should start packing up and stop using the laptop.

I should rest early.

Things to do:

Team, Team, Team.

Saving.

Adapt. Change of personality.

Stop bearing grudges.

Forgive and forget.

Controlling of diet.

Aim to run the long route to Bukit Gombak and back to CCK without stopping.

Run with/without Drey each week.

Sleep early, wake up early.

Prioritise. School is starting. Work.

many more but this are the main things.

Ok, goodnight.

Labels: Family, J, NoteToSelf, Photos, Run, Team, Training

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050. Mixed with rock and roll.

Sunday, March 8, 2009; 10:26 AM

Yknow seriously i should just refrain myself from like, going to your blog. -.-

two face two face two face.

hypocrite.

to the max to the max to the max.

crappppppp. -.-

ok time trial was fine ytd. :)

work was torturous!

dunno leh, fun is fun luh, but damn tiring.

my legs were sore and all. T.T

by the time we closed zoo's b&j, my legs are like, OMGOSH HELPPPP!~

too bad cannot go home, proceeded to night safari with Juliet.

Dun wanna scoopy ice cream, so took over the drink kiosk.

Happen to see Hanting and Lala. :)

by the time 11 comes, i was dying to get on the bus and fly straight homeee.

my bag was all packed for training today but i just couldnt get myself up. =(

my body and legs were really aching and hen tong lehhhh! =(

decided to give training a miss. gahhh...

Thinking back, days in secondary schools and all.

netball trainings seems tough back then.

10 mins run, running with medicine ball, vertical run was equally bad.

right up till now, where canoeist endure 35 mins run, resistance paddling, sprinting many sets of 400m on water. this is crazy, really when you really will cry and scream.

but all these trainings will do us good and not go down the drain.

it will definitely bring good achievements.

mr500 is nearing, no matter who is paddling or who is not, we're still a team.

train hard guys, 20 more days.

jiayou!

luckily i have shiong trainings. :/

hahahahaha, cause can afford to eat alot.

steamboat later. :)

steamboat this coming satruday! :D

HEHEHEHEHEHEHE!

OH I FORGOT ME GOING CUT HAIR LATERZXXZXZ!

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038. Friends; Shinning Friends.

Friday, February 20, 2009; 12:20 AM

To the dearest beloved team/teammates,

I'm sorry if I've disappointed you guys in ways or another,

but I'm trying, I have yet give up, I'm still trying.

I hope things are getting better,

We(the committee) are infact all trying, and we all definitely wants the best for the team.

and I hope, we would be able to reach to our goal, something we've been dying to achieve.

Jiayou, RPCanoeist, SA!

To the dearest beloved friends.

Its not really nice to see each and everyone of you drowning in your own sorrows.

I know I'm not superman, neither someone with great super powers.

However, if you're ready to share, I'm more than willing to listen.

If ever one day, you'd collaspe, please bear in mind, I will be there, the others will be there.

We'll all be there for you, grabbing your hands, pulling you up.

Count on us, you can trust all of us, no one will let anyone else fall.

I do not know if i have the ability,

but I'm trying not to let ANY of you fall.

当你已经不能承受一切, 告诉我. 我会尽全力, 帮助你.

加油了，亲爱的朋友们！

JUST CALL MY NAME, I'LL BE THERE!

Labels: Friends, Team, Teammates

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030. Changing, Never Ending.

Thursday, February 5, 2009; 7:48 PM

YOOOOHOOOOO!!!!

Sunday night was a torture.

I hate it.

Monday double session training was alright I supposed?

I forgot alr luh.

I only remember i took hell loads of photo on that day.

After training to bugis with Ade, Xiaojun and Sihong to pei Ade cut her hair!

Strudelll~ yummylicious.

trained to lakeside to Melvin's house.

Dinner, and talk chill slack. :). left at 10pm with Xiaojun and headed home.

That night wasnt really peaceful. :/

Tues morning.

Woke up at 10am++.

Online and decided to chiong my $4.50 Mac meal lunch offer from 12pm - 2pm.

Reached IMM at 12.45 meeting Xiaojun and Markcus. :)

WAH CHIONG MACSPICY AND MACWINGS PLEASE! HAHAHA!

TOTALLLLL SHIOKNESS!

decided to give myself a break to binge on junk because of the screwed mood.

Headed to JP, dessert. JI DE CHI! O.O!

At night, met up with the primary school mates. Sharon, Louis and Delwin. YAY! :)

Ajisen. TOMYAM RAMEN!

total fatness that day. anyway. good catch up yo. we had a fun time laughing and crapping. :)

Met up with Joshua at limbang. Mac for him, steal abit of his food. hehe.

Went to the playground. :). Many missess... Many memories...

talk, laugh, smile, home. :)

Yesterday was fat again.

After water training ytd, headed to mac and chiong the $4.50 meal again.

Mac spicy and mac wings again.

HAHAHAHA!

SHIT SHIT SHIT!

Slack with Ade Sihong and Xiaojun till Sihong left and we cont and left too.

Joshua's place, slept, Thai express.

wah freaking fat. T.T hah. dun care luh.

Homeee~

Today double training damn chui please.

T.T

my left shoulder have been giving me problems like very badly. =(

I realise my appetite have been big.

Due to the mood? or what.

i dunno.

Maybe its mood.

Cause I didnt really eat much of dinner. :/

Today's meeting after training allowed me to open up.

I got to jiayou.

Not only me, but Jaf, Cat & Ken.

Also the whole committee and the team.

Come on people, love deep yo, JIAYOU!

Gosh Kel, stop bearing grudges. =(

I'm SAD!

Markcus & Xiaojun out at PLAY.

with Ade and Sihong.

I also want.

doubt I'll ever have a chance.... :/.

I'm really tired. I want to sleeepppp.

btw, I got the job at zoo!

yay! they called on wednesday. damn happy!

reporting tomorrow. 2pm-6pm.

:):)~ Hurrayyyy!

Friends.

Friends don't lie.

Friends don't fake.

Friends don't pretend.

Friends will stay..

You know, this matter actually kept me thinking, and not allowing other thoughts to enter my mind. You know how tough this actually gets for me. Maybe I'm being stupid or silly. But just how much this means to me, to actually allow me to spend 2 hours lying on my bed just thinking and wishing for every single thing before I fall asleep. How much I want things to work out. I'm really upset to see all this. I dont want this to happen. Please do not let it happen. You guys means so much so much to me. =(

Too late? =(

I forsee my busy schedule~~~

ahhh, I dunno.

Im not really sure.

I hope things will turn out fine. :/

Work, Training.

Jiayou ahh..

Xiaojun, I'm so sorry for the capsizing and all on k2 luh. Yes, its my fault! =(

hahahaha. But I love you all the same.

*hugs and kisses*

Same to you Markcusssss. :)

Joshua, thanks ok? :)

You've been of great help and your listening ears are the best thing I could ever ask for.

Sometimes I feel inferior.

Sometimes this sometimes that.

Im not sure how Im feeling inside before...

now I know..

As much as i hate _, I love _.

As much as i want to _, I want to _ too.

Sigh.

北极星的眼泪

说不出的想念

原来我们活在两个世界

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025. -25.01.09-

Sunday, January 25, 2009; 11:40 PM

25th post for 25th January 2009. :D

Its a joy to me, each time i see 25th January.

Be it calender, newspaper, handphones and all the others, i just feel very happy to see 25th Jan.

And probably one of the most favourite thing to do when i'm bored :

read through the old blogs and see the past 25th January post.

25. Probably one of the number i loved most.

somehow still what or so, 15 still attracts me. :).

just put it this way, i love multiples of 5. :D

24th January.

After a tough night on 23rd, I'm glad things are all back to normal. :)

Joshua picked me up from cck and bused to JP. :)

Had a good talk with him and it was a really great one.

Dine in at Billy Bombers. His treat! and the bill was a bomb. :/

Walked around and suppose to get a cake at Bakerinz but i was too full!

Headed to his place and spent the night there. :)

knocked off early. was really tired since i didnt really get much sleep the previous night. :/

Joshua woke me up at 11.50pm and talked to me but i didnt really wanna wake up.

10 mins later..

He whispered, "Happy 18th birthday, baby." followed by a kiss on the lips. :)

We lied beside each other in the living room, i guess we just kept looking at each other till we fell asleep unknowingly. :)

25th January.

Woke up at 6am. wash up, bathe and out we go at 6.40am.

The adorable boy was well dressed for church this morning. :)

He sent me back to cck before heading to church.

Met drey at 7.30am at cck.

Her treat for breakfast, and thanks for the present too! :)

Home and helped out.

Things went downside for awhile but it became better.

Lunch, wash up, slack around and KO!

woke up at 5pm. checked the emails. got stressed up. :S:S:S:S!

then dinner and all.

I was feeling bored so i took the card Joyce and Cheryl did for me to my room, wanting to paste it on my bedside wall.

Daddy followed me so i thought he was trying to be irritating. He took a look at the card and went out of the room.

Then came back suddenly and said, STELLA COME OUT QUICKLY!

I went out and then.....

Big surprise for me yoooo!

i totally forgot about wanting a mudpie for a birthday cake from island creamery!

Thanks Xiuhui! LOVE YOU SO MUCHHHH! :D

So my day was spent this way. Short and sweet. :)

not forgetting, the presents!

Joshua gave me 2 books, Marley & Me and New Moon(!!!!!!).

NEWWW MOOON NEW MOOOON!!!!!!

when others have actually finished breaking dawn im still at NEW MMOOOONNN!

NEVERMINDDDDDDD!!!!!!!

Joshua says that isnt my birthday present though. :/

I'm still kind of excited!! :D

Drey gave me a tee shirt. :)

Joyce and Cheryl gave me puzzle as mentioned.

I guess thats it! :)

Wishes!

i wanted to actually name out those who wished me a happy birthday!

but too many! O.O!

In friendster/faceboook/sms/call!

yeappsss!

Wilson was again, being such a sweetheart for calling me at 12am. :D.

Enna was very very sweet by msging me at 01.25pm! Makes me really happy!

Thanks Xiaojun, Markcus and Yuanyuan for the long msg! :D

GOR GOR AND XIAOSTELLLA!!!! WHEEE!

Charmaine for the early wishhh. :)

My angel Sheryl! :D

Was quite happy to receive Bryan's call. :). Thanks, Bestfriend!

W47D, Andy, Christina, Yvonne and Zech. :)

Candy Wee Siew Hua! :). you're not late. thanks! :D

THE WATER WARRIORSSS; CANOEIST!

SHARON! :D! i guess shes the only 6H-ian to msg me. :/

the gelignites! urm, which consist of Yeewen, Rayne, Junjie and Mr Cris. :/

and the very very random people!

BASICALLY TO EACH AND EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME!

THANKYOU SO MUCH!

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH!

THANKS FOR REMEMBERING! :D

My day was great, well spent, definitely.

Yes, i'm 18.

One year older.

Probably got to really grow up now.

hah.

18. 18. 18.

goodness.

hahaha, time flies.

Birthday wish, i didnt get to make any.

Haven thought of any.

hah, I'll wish tonight! :D

Happy new year everybody!

ITS TIME FOR THE NEW YEAR GOODIES!

ANGBAOSSSS~~~~

OK KELROY CANNOT EAT TOO MUCH BEFORE SHE GAINS BACK THE AMOUNT OF FATS LOST DURING TRAININGS!

NAWWWWWW!

BYEEEE! :D:D:D:D!

ME LOVE RPC TEAM DEEP DEEP, DEEPER THAN THE RESERVOIR!

ME LOVE WEES!

ME LOVE EVERYBODY!

ME LOVEE EDITH AND MARKCUS!

BYEEEE~

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