Seems like some people are still -.- damn. -.-. like that.
very irritating, very annoying.
this feeling is getting worse eh. -.-
its not a good sign.
i bear grudges much, know?
So i guess neither of us realise we've been training 2 weeks straight this way?
3 sessions of training everyday.
Crazy as it may seemed.
Appetite has grown, like, alot.
Despite burning lesser than the others due to the knee & not running tgt with the team but still, i'm burning the carbo so i guess its still fine to remain the appetite this way.
As it came to one point that, we either sleep and rest in the bus, or in the shed.
Excluding Monday & Thursday since we head back to RP to gym.
Tues, Wed, Friday. After lunch = head back to the shed to sleep.
I'd then go to that spot of mine, make myself comfortable, and then drift off.
Its quite nice to sleep there, really. :)
I mean, i think LSR has become another home for me and that, though its like filled with leaves, some ants crawling here and there, i guess i wouldnt really mind much but to just lay down and, sleep. :D
Training is turning like a crazy shit for all of us.
I swear! Its like, crazy, insane, & you just go to break through all your emotions, mental barriers and everything. Cause its impossible to go through just the motion and then pack up and go home. I swear you'd learn something and get something before packing up and heading home in the evening.
Yesterday we did 30s on 30s off. it was CRAZY. Frequency and power must be there and executing it was mad terrible. Your arms are flinging all around, no matter how tired, how sore, you just got to keep going. I swear at the end of ytd, satisfied much but it was really chui.
Today was 1 min on and 30s off. another chui session of training. luckily it was evening. morning session was 8 x 250m with a short hose tube tied underneath the boat which causes great resistance and paddling, kicking and twisting was like, WHACK SUDDEN AND HARD. like, hen tong leh. =(.
Yes, knee is, like, bad, *shake head* bad.
idk what else i can say alr. i just got to keep relying on tape. hoping and wishing i'd get through all till after november 29.
Training is crazy. Pain is crazy. but believe me when i say i'm loving the pain.
The feeling of your body feeling sore and sour when you wake up in the morning makes you wanna cry but deep down, the sense of achievement and satisfaction would be there, no doubt.
I believe, after this 5 weeks of intensive training, i will grow stronger.
Especially in mentality, definitely, much more stronger.
You just wouldnt know how crazy it is.
I just dont know how to let you know.
Thank goodness, the 8 girls are with me.
Tell me about it.
RPC mighty girls.
9 of us, paddling in k1, full attendance, chionging together.
Believe me when i say its a beautiful sight.
Beauty that you do not see on the external but internal.
just 9 boats, 9 girls, giving their best, heading towards the same direction, sharing only one goal.
tell me about it.
Check out facebook for our photos kae. :)
So like since it was running for the 2nd session of training today, everyone went ahead and i was left in the shed alone.
Pulled the stool over to my favourite corner, sat down and started reading, A Walk To Remember.
Filled with emotions, thoughts, and all sorts of those words you can relate to.
The rain started getting heavier. It was some kind of add on ambience shit thing that makes my mood even more. omg.
I swear i was so into the story and i started going crazy and people who came back from the run thought i was crazy.
gahh. end up crying, end up drying up the tears and end up tearing again.
Gosh.. (Y). the book was a good one, a very good one.
So again, i've learnt something new today! :)
The book was really great.
Today is friday, & i didnt have to work.
So head straight home after training today.
Unpacked and head out to meeting Xiaojun, Angeline & Joachim for supper.
Then back to Northvale playing games, having random talks and yeah, time to go home.
ok this is random but im staring out my balcony. the moon is, really nice tonight?
like, orangy red though its half covered by clouds but its really pretty.
Yay to weekends, sleep in more?
nahh.
I'm meeting Mr Cris, Yeewen & Michelle tomorrow evening for lunch. :)
Sunday 6.30am at NYP for helping out at the Mizuno run, then chionging down to the zoo to work at 3 - 11pm.
then its back to intensive training again!
Days are getting pass very very fast.
It gets a little torturous at times but i knocked off fast enough before i start having wild imaginations.
I wouldnt really say that everyday was a good day because, things are just not ok.
I hate pretending that things are fine.
I hate going through everyday like this. but.
I really dunno what else i can do.
-
It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to you
I might just disappear.
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
Oh, it's like
One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,
Oh, it's like
Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh
It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.
It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad and I
Can't change your mind, oh
It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I'm sorry
It's never enough to say I care
But I'm caught between what you
Wanted from me, and knowing
If I give that to you
I might just disappear.
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
Oh, it's like
One step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind,
Oh, it's like
Trying to turn around on a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I, I'm starting to see
Maybe we're not meant to be
It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I try
It's hard to believe that's there's
No way out for you and me
And it seems to be,
The story of our life
Nobody wins when everyone's losing
It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what I do you're always mad
And I can't change your mind, oh
It's like trying to turn around on a
One way street. I can't give
You what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see
That maybe we're not meant to be
There's still time to turn this around
Should we be building this up
Instead of tearing it down
But I keep thinking
Maybe it's too late.
It's like one step forward
And two steps back,
No matter what I do
You're always mad and I
Can't change your mind, oh
It's like tryin to turn around
On a one way street
I can't give you what you want
And it's killing me and I,
I finally see,
Baby we're not meant to be
-
I don't need what you're giving me.
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