Didnt get to meet drey at 10pm.

Went out alone to get stuffs that i need.

walked back to Northvale and sat below my block.

Someone came and accompanied me.

Thanks, you. :) Sorry if i did made you worry. and i hope i didnt utter rubbish.

I guess is was quite alright right? i mean, i knew what i was saying.. :/

just, when we were about to end off, i kept laughing and laughing? :/

Thanks, for sending me right up to my doorstep. :)

Thanks for rushing down just to pei wo.

Sorry to make you worryyy.

thankyou thankyou! :) Love you max. :)

Woke up this morning.

It wasnt much of a hangover but i just felt, i could continue deep sleeping.

drag myself to LSR, slept awhile and training started.

5 bigs marathon rounds followed by 10 sets of 250m with Xiaojun.

Sets was good, despite the pain in the knee. :/

PT, everything chop chop, had fun after training while watching others wash boats.

then bathe, lunch, and headed home for a short nap.

woke up dinner. T.T omg full.

and slackkkking now.

Gonna do schedule for the team later, and am gonna wash clothes.

annddd, im turning in early tonight.

tomorrow is a long day.

and i only hope my knee would be able to take it.

training and work from 3pm to 11pm.

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The above was given to me from my sweetest partner. :)

heh, i wouldnt deny for the past few days my mood was screwed and bad.

Even while we were paddling today, i swear i was hardcore venting & she was suffering behind. :/

BUT my hardcore venting is not just piak piak piak through my sets one hor! I really did give my best shot, Xiaojun! Power comes with desperation! see, anger makes wonder too! :/

Thanks my dearest partner, thanks for the biscuits. I love you. :)

& also, wanna apologise to Joachim. :/

Sorry ok, i knew you were disappointed. Im really really sorry.

Thanks for being there, i knew you tried you best.

Im sorry for being stubborn, sorry for not listening to you.

& i knew you were worried, but im sorry, im really ok.

I hope you're feeling better today.

Dui bu qii.. :/you hen guilty de.

I do not know how to get through this.

Yes, im scared, i still refuse to break open that door.

Im worried and afraid that i cant control this further.

I do not know how am i gonna deal with it.

Let this be a note to myself,

if i ever set my heart on doing this, i'm gna give my best shot.

fuck, i swear i have to and i will.

just, its gonna be a gut-feel thing.

This barrier, its either i tear it down, or i'll take another route.

slowly, kelroy, slowly.

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