4 years ago, just 4 years back,
i made this mistake.
That was the first.
& i thought it would be the last.
i was wrong.
months ago, just months ago,
i made the same mistake.
& i thought it would be the very last time.
i was wrong.
yesterday, just yesterday.
it all happened too quickly.
as afraid as i am.
im numbed and immuned.
to the pain.
like, i dont feel anything anymore.
Surprisingly, shockingly,
i did it.
Cold hearted, harsh, speaking words that brought no feelings.
what has become of me,
seriously, tell me.
As disappointed as most are,
I'm more than just disappointed in myself.
cause its not the first time,
and i should be clear of how i should be feeling now more than anyone else.
let this be the third and final thrashing i'll take.
after that, no more 4th, no more next time.
Predict the future? can you?
if you can look straight into my eyes and tell me, its worth it,
i'll then look straight back into your eyes and ask you, forever?
Nothing last forever.
Like someone now, and can you be sure that in the years to come, you still like him/her?
Prove me wrong then.
its so unpredictable.
you wouldnt feel good, when you're being brought up this way, to want things perfectly done.
Perfectionist, i'm far from being one but i like to do things perfectly.
You think its good? think again.
Give me a reason, why should people let known their feelings to the ones they love,
when in the years to come, it would be a different person that they're expressing their love to.
Give me a reason, if you disagree.
Tell me, prove to me that, its gonna be worth it, even if it doesnt works out and both parties end up getting screwed.
This post is getting nowhere and i dont wanna be here anymore.
So restricted, fuck it.
Fskhw, see you.
Labels: Deepthoughts