It hurts this much. I'm trembling at the thought of you doing this.
my eyes are tired. but yet they're filled with tears and im trying not to let it drop.
i want to hate you. i want to kill you. i want to leave you all alone and let you do whatever you want.
do you know what the fuck you are saying?
do you know what the fuck you are doing?
worth it? worth it not?
you were the one who told me that im foolish and stupid.
yet you're the one doing all this now.
it hurts to know that i'm nothing to you.
it hurts even more when you're in this state and i know i cant do anything to help you at all.
i swear i'd do anything just to make you feel better.
i swear i'd do anything just to get rid of your foolish thoughts.
i fucking hate myself for making you feel worse.
im sorry.
but i know i got to.
even if i have to go all out to make you hate me,
i'd still say what i've said to you,
to make sure you wake up.
Im sorry for being such a lousy friend.
Im sorry for not being there.
Im sorry Enna.
Im sorry.