the last thing i ever want to listen to after a long day,
is words that i never want to hear - your discouragement.
i hate it whenever you have to say i've been putting so much time into canoe but you do the see how much this exactly meant to me.
you took away what i've fought hard for in netball.
i tried my best to maintain my results, as well as canoeing.
now what is the reason for you not supporting me?
Yes, my bad that im training 6 times a week, and neglecting the family.
but i have my responsibilities and duties to handle and settle.
because NCC is coming, therefore much more effort is put into trainings.
i tried my best to rush home asap each night,
but yet each night i come home, i still hear words i never want to hear.
so much for trying.
im sorry then.
but im still gonna do this no matter what.
it means more than just this.
wilson is not doing well in his studies,
dont put the blame on me.
i understand how much time tuition work takes up.
and i dont want to see him being stressed up,
so im against the idea of sending him for more tuitions.
now that his results are bad, im to blame? wth.
yes, i've not been seeing him for long.
sometimes when im home, hes alr asleep and when i wakes up, hes gone.
that doesnt mean that i do not care.
sigh,
just tell me about it.
juniors training was chop chop, done.
girls was cooperative, so we cleared everything fast.
pull ups, games and off they go. :)
bathed and headed to town, again. -.-
this time to exchange xiuhui's shirt size.
bahh.
my dunno how many days roaming around town and damn sian alr luh.
my energy is drained.
and im really tired.
today was a relatively good day,
other than, minus-ing the part where i received a phonecall at 2.54am.
and it lasted for quite awhile before heading back to sleep.
mood was better when i reached school and all.
i know i can continue to be more than just a bastard for doing whatever i'm doing.
im sorry.
i know i've disappoint more than just one person.
but,
ok nvm.
save the explanations.
i think im making things worse...
i felt the difference,
and it felt different.
something, different from what i've been feeling from the past 2 weeks.
its new.
its unusual.
probably special in a way or another.
thanks.
thanks for today.
its not gonna be easy,
but i know i'll make it.